Monday, December 31, 2007

This could be a very long story

About a week before Christmas I placed a phone call to my local cable Internet provider to tell them "thank you for the year of service but I would like to cancel my cable television and keep my Internet and phone connections active."The response came back sure thing it will cost you five dollars more a month to only have two services with us!!! I would be paying more for less!! After allot of explaining that they had given me a bundling discount I got so angry I told them I wanted none of it and they could come pick up there things. Then about five minutes later it hit me... What did I do. I have no phone no Internet and no television.. (okay the TV I didn't want anyway but What had I done). How was I going to get through Christmas and the new year. I quickly called the new company They could be here what turned out to be this morning. So here is the story of the last two weeks. Mostly in pictures.

My son is a huge train fan. So we thought it would be fun to take him on the Trax train to downtown Salt Lake and see the lights at temple square. It was great we left early in the afternoon, bundled up really warm and rode the train in. We spent the afternoon as tourists seeing the beehive house where Brigham Young and his family lived. Then we toured the Conference Center. Holy Cow that is one heck of a tour. By the time we were finished with it it was dark and we were able to go see the lights on. It is so beautifully. if you have not made the trek to see it, you should work it out one year. They string lights over everything but the temple which stands in the center in all of its glory. They have manger scenes from all over the world which I love because it shows that Christ did not just come for a short life to be had in Jerusalem but for the whole world. And he is still here today communicating with a prophet of god.
I got my Christmas Exchange gift from Meg in Australia and All I can say is How fun was that. Meg was so sweet to send a perfect Christmas rag doll goose. My kids wanted it on the tree because we had sent her an ornament we made together so they thought her gift should go on our tree. It was lovely. As I packed it away I thought how fun it will be to start a new tradition of participating in this one every year.

We spent days making Christmas treats which I tend to go overboard doing but, It is my husbands favorite thing about Christmas so I love it every year. This year I tried some new stuff
I stayed with the old favorites like, sugar cookies, no bake cookies (I know not Christmas but My husbands favorite just the same) and peppermint bark, then I dove into marshmallow fudge, toffee (thank you chronicler it was great), Whoopie Pies, and Waffle brownies(again chronicler) And I even made my grandmas Carmel, YUMM!! It was allot of work but oh so much fun to hand out to our friends and neighbors.

Christmas day was great The tree was overflowing with gifts because we had all of the presents from grandmas and grandpas as well as from us it looked so overdone but it was fun. We got to spend hours opening presents because we had no where to be so we would open a gift and then play with it then open a new one and play with it. After that I made breakfast and we hung out all day, we went and rode the new sled, and watched our new movies. really I could not have asked for a better day....


Why do you say, well maybe it was the hundreds of spiders that were calling it home when they chopped it down, and there relatives that had managed to cling to it even after we had brought it home sprayed it down and had the burning hot lights on it for three weeks. AUGHHH I am still shivering just writing about it. You can't see it all that well. but me star was practically tied to the tree by spider webs. So as soon as Christmas came it was gone . Till next year..Merry Belated Christmas to you all.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

My kids got elfed

Check it out. And make your own This is so much fun!!!

This elfin' greeting brought to you by OfficeMax

Monday, December 10, 2007

Snowed in

What a snowy week we have had. Yes, that is a jaguar that slid off of the raod and was completly ripped apart while the tow truck driver was pulling it out.


I was trying to put up all of my pictures earlier but got stuck so this will coninue on with what has kept me away from my computer for so long...

Picture show

Friday, November 16, 2007

The BIG 0-4

My biggest boy turned 4 this year and we had his first "friend "party. I decided that even though some day he might hate me for it I did a theme Halloween party. It's his birthday and We will live it up!!! So here are some pictures from out Mad Scientist Lab. I had three stations: make you own monster, face painting, and make slime. You think a bunch of four year olds would love this kinds of thing...... NOPE I could get none of them to make slime. You know the cornstarch and water kind that drips through your fingers if you don't constantly move it. Then I only got the girls to get there faces painted. Two of the boys made monsters but it was the craziest thing. I tried really hard to make this party great. and I felt for a while that I totally bombed, But all of the kids parents have told me that they have not stopped talking about the best part........ pin the tail on the donkey!! So much for trying to go all out.

I also added my kids pictures from our trunk or treat this year. Thomas Percy and a really cheap dalmatian costume. I was so crazed by the party and my little girl being sick that a did not get his Sir Tophan hat costume finished and ended up a Kmart an hour before the party started. Oh well we all had a great time.

(the pictures are not great but if you click on them you can see it better)

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Day trip!

I have been wanting to write about his for a few weeks now and finally have a moment to do it so here it goes.......

On Oct. 21st we were invited to attend a regional stake conference at the conference center where President Hinckley would be presiding. My whole family was so excited We woke up extra early and got dressed before the kids got up and once they did we hurry and got them dressed I made breakfast to go and we were in the car. The meeting started at ten but we were there at 8:45 we sat in the eighth row to the side where the prophet would be walking in. We sat for a while and walked for a while passing the time. And about five minutes before he came in my little baby decided he had had enough. So I walked him to the back of the isle to put him to sleep. Right as he was going out I heard over head "Welcome to the conference center,... please take you seats" So I waited another few minutes to make sure he was really out and then headed down the isle. Just as I was approaching my row The whole room got silent and I froze Looked up and saw that cute little old man who walks so frailly with God. I watched him pretty much hobble to his seat raise his cane to say hi to everyone and then sit down.
What a great meeting we heard talks on being more still, not over scheduling our lives. About the importance of F.H.E. and prayer. The spirit in that room fills the chair cushions, my children sat and played quietly for the whole two hours. and then when President Hinckley got up to speak they both listened, for a few minutes. He talked to Fathers about putting your homes in order, He said that just because you are gone all day at work that is no excuse for coming home grumpy and taking a bad day out on your family. His voice was a stern warning to parents who would talk badly in front of there children or who would raise a hand to them. I was truly inspired by the tone of his voice it made me wonder how I act around my kids when no one is around. I try to be the best mom I can be. And now I realize that there whole lives in and through eternity will depend on what I teach them while I have them here in my home. What a huge overwhelming responsibility. But a joy all the same. It would kill me if I did not have them with me in Heaven, There is only one way that they can be there and that is if we all make it together! HOLY COW!
I can't take on day off, I have to always be a light to my children......

But you know what, my little children are the light to me. As I have stopped to pay attention to them I can see there testimonies in there eyes. Bruce R. McKonkie said he was born with a testimony of the gospel of Christ. I believe we all are, anyone who chose the right plan knows in his soul all about it, it is a matter of bringing it all back. To feel that hidden part of you leap for joy when you feel the spirit telling you truth. My little girl loves Jesus. I mean loves him. She always has she knows he loves her. She always has. It is truly a wonder to watch her as she quiets down to pray to her father in Heaven. I am so grateful for the truths we all share as a family every day. I could not ask for anything more than to be a mother to these kids.

One more thing and then this huge post will be over.. As the meeting ended and we all stood to watch the prophet go the room once again got silent so I lifted me sweet girl up to see and as he passed us by my girl screamed "Bye bye pes. hinkee" He stopped and looked right at her. I have never been so happy to have my daughter so irreverent in my life! What I fun story to tell her when she gets bigger. And what a great day.

Monday, November 05, 2007


Hello to my rocking sister in law who I just found out was a blogging girl as well! I am so excited to be able to keep up with her better. She is a super sweet girl and has been so much fun to have in my family I miss her so much. She is the best Aunt my kids could have and an even better sister to my prince. Go check her out I guarantee a laugh!

Friday, October 26, 2007

It's my PARTY

I am so excited I can't write a ton but I am having my sons first "friend" birthday party today And I can't wait. It seems like he was just born yesterday and he is going to be 4 years old soon. I will post pictures later but I was just so happy I had to get some of it out now!!

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Thank you!!

It feels like forever since I got on the computer to blog! But here I am with a wrap up of what is up.

From wonderful Smee I opened my mailbox and found a beautiful package of music. just what I needed!
Just a few short weeks ago I had a well check with my kids at a new doctors office. My little girl had a slight fever and the doctor was concerned because she had no ear infection and was in all effect feeling well. So I was sent home with a cup for her to pee in and told to bring it back when she had done so. It turned out hat not only did she have and infection but she had a high concentration of sugar in there. So we have been going through testing for diabetes for a while now. I have to test her sugar levels three times a day with a finger stick test. At first it was terrible she would scream and fight me for a while before I was able to get the blood sample to test and now after 1 1/2 weeks she picks which finger to give me and the tests go pretty quickly. However I feel like I am running in circles because I don't have any answers and I am plagued with wondering if what I watch her do every day is "normal" or not. She gets very tired about an hour after lunch and lies down for a while. Not sleeping not watching T.V. she just lies on the couch for a rest. sometimes this can last for two hours. And now I wonder about that. She wakes up two or three times most nights for a drink of water. And now I worry about that. She has severe dry skin. And Now I worry about that. In one week I will go in and Maybe get some answers. Who knows maybe they will send me home again to have more tests but, I am afraid for my little girl. I think that is maybe just part if being a mom. That even if your kids are healthy you worry about them constantly. I guess it will never stop.
But thank heaven for small blessings. When I opened my letter from Smee I got to take a time out and DANCE with my girl we put on the first CD and dances to the music laughing and playing. What a wonderful moment Thank you Smee for giving it to me!

Thursday, October 18, 2007

I read this song in a book yesterday. It was popular in the beginging og the ninetenth century. We have come so far and yet I still found this funny and spot on for all of us women who will one day be "buried in dirt"

A Housewife’s Lament: Life is a toil
One day I was walking, I heard a complaining,
I saw a poor woman, the picture was gloom.
She gazed at the mud on her doorstep (twas Raining),
And this was her song as she wielded her broom:

"Oh life is a toil, and love is a trouble,
Beauty will fade and riches will flee,
Wages will dwindle and prices will double
And nothing is as I would wish it to be."

"There’s too much of worriment goes to a bonnet,
There’s too much of ironing goes to a shirt.
There’s nothing that pays for the time you waste on it,
There’s nothing that lasts us but trouble and dirt.

"In March it is mud, it’s slush in December,
The midsummer breezes are loaded with dust.
In fall the leaves litter, in muddy September
The wallpaper rots and the candlesticks rust.

There are worms on the cherries and slugs on the roses,
And ants in the sugar and mice in the pies.
The rubbish of spiders no mortal supposes
And ravaging roaches and damaging flies.

"It’s sweeping at six and it’s dusting at seven,
It’s victuals at eight and it’s dishes at nine.
It’s potting and panning from ten to eleven.
We scarce break our fast till we plan how to dine.

"With grease and with grime from corner to center,
Forever at war and forever alert.
Nor rest for a day lest the enemy enter,
I spend my whole life in the struggle with dirt.

"Last night in my dreams I was stationed forever,
On a far distant rock in the midst of the sea.
My one task of life was a ceaseless endeavor,
To brush off the waves as the swept over me.

"Alas! ‘Twas a dream-ahead I behold it,
I see I am helpless my fate to avert!"
She lay down her broom, her apron she folded.
She lay down and died and was buried in dirt.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Lisa Gave me this very *NICE* award. And I Love her for it. IT has been one of those weeks that it seems impossible to be nice. My kids are sick and my baby has started walking. He actually took his very first steps right there with Lisa while we were visiting on Saturday at her BABY WATCH EARLY INTERVENTION fall social. October is early intervention month. It was great to spend time with her and with all of the parents who walk a much harder path than I. They truly are warriors in this world and will be rewarded in the next. What sweet spirits filled that room. Thank you for the Award Lisa and for the constant light you are in my life.

Monday, October 08, 2007

I have been tagged by Chronicler to do a 6 Habits/fact meme. When I am done i will tag 6 new people to share with me their own habits/facts
But First The Rules:
A. Each player lists 6 facts/habits about themselves.
B. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning before those facts/habits are listed.
C. At the end of the post, the player then tags 6 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog

1 (fact) I have on obsession with T.V. I love the drama and fighting on the reality shows. I never miss an episode of The Office,CSI (sorry Smee), and Lockup. This list could be so much longer but I would truly embarrass myself so I have shortened it to my three favorites.

2 (habit) I am desperately trying to give up Diet coke. It really does run in my blood. My mom has been a Diet Coke head since I was a kid and I think I have seriously come to associate it with the comfort of my mom. Whenever I am stressed out or sad I go straight to the 7-11 and get a Big Huge Big gulp. I am sure the caffeine has something to do with it as well.

3 (fact) I am Deeply in love with my husband. He is the most perfect man in the world for me. He was gone for about three hours on Sat. helping a friend and I could not sleep until he got home. I miss him when he is gone and get butterflies in my tummy when he's on his way home

4 (habit) I do the same routine every morning in the shower I start with my head Shampoo and then while the conditioner sits I shave my legs and wash up and then while I rinse out the conditioner I rinse off the suds. And I finish by washing my face because I don't want to have conditioner clog my pores. I know I am a weirdo. But I know if I did not follow the pattern I would mess up my whole day.

5 (fact) I am far from the best primary secretary but I love the job. I get to know all of the kids and I also get to be in the hallways chatting with the parents I don;t feel estranged form the ward but I also get the satisfaction of having a challenging calling.

6 (habit) I am a avid journal writter so much so that I will call it a habit. I have volumes of stuff from my dad, and he was good, but I want more. So I am leaving my kids a library of information on me. And on them. I love the stories and the poems I read when I look back on where I have been .

Well that's it let the game continue with: Penders, Shinbou, Lisa, Smee, Adan, and sorry I only have five who have not already done it. Good luck to you all.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Help I need a title for this

Is it too much to ask
to just get a peak
to see into heaven
to walk on it's streets
Just a small single moment
a minute or two
just a glimpse into heaven
to see what to do

If you could walk with your father
for just a minute or two
what would you think to ask him
do you think he would give you a clue
or would his reply be this simple
just trust me I'll get you through

As long as you walk on my pathway
and try to stay in my sight
I will lovingly guide you
the end that you find will be right

Life is not always easy
in fact it seldom will be
But love and sorrow will mold you
into somebody more like me

I wrote this after reading in the Book of Mormon 1st Nephi 2:16 Nephi desires to know he mysteris of God. I have so many unanswered questions and I feel somtimes like I am screaming( I have several anger issues with my Father in Heaven that we are SLOWLY working out) for a hint of what is the right direction. Any suggestions for a titile would be appriciated, eveything I have come up with makes no sense.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

I am still shaking

Last Week I sat at my kitchen window and watched my three and two year olds playing with a neighbor boy in the backyard. I had never met this new kid but, he seemed nice enough and my kids were having fun so I kept an eye on them and tried to go on with my every day work. I did not ever get too far away but as the hours of play went on a got more comfortable leaving them to play for longer periods of time. When my baby woke up I ran upstairs and got him out of his crib when I came down not a minute later and looked out of my window.... THEY WERE GONE.
I ran to the neighbor boys house and knocked on the door. No Answer. I ran up to the flower bed that My girl likes to go to and they were not there. My children are not wanderers so when I screamed there names and they did not come I began to panic. I ran to my next door neighbor and threw my baby at her when she opened her door and said" My kids are gone" She in turn threw my baby to her husband and headed for the park down the street. I went around to the front door of the little boys house they were playing with and rang the door bell several times. NO answer. Then I ran across the street and knocked on the door of a younger couple in our ward and as he opened the door, I said "My kids are missing" That is all it took. He and his wife were in their cars and driving before I could get the the front office of my community. Then I ran in to the office and told the people there that my kids were missing. They in turn got on their golf carts and started there own search.This all must have happened within five minutes. And soon after that I was on my bike peddling through the neighborhood screaming their names. We searched and searched. Finally I gave in and called the police. But I could not remember what they were wearing. all I knew was that they had no shoes on. So I went into my house to sit for a minute and think so that I could give the police a better description of them.
Then I saw him, the little neighbor boy who they had been playing with 25 minutes earlier in my backyard. I ran to him and yelled"where are my kids!!!" He pointed to my next door neighbors house who pulled me inside where I saw my little boy and girl playing with a train set. My neighbor had watched them come into the backyard from that same new friends house and he immediately pulled them into his house. I have never in my life been more terrified that I was in those moments. I must have sobbed for an hour after I got them back.
It turns out they mother of the little boy had let them into her house to play while her son was getting ready for karate. I will never understand why she would think that my two and three year olds were old enough to say that I knew they were there. And even more why after repeated knocks and rings at her door she did not answer. Of course my brain was in Horror mode while I thought of all of the horrible things that could have happened to them in those twenty five minutes. and only after allot of prayer and talks with them do I now think they really did just watch tom and jerry.
I will never forget the wonderful feeling of being able to call on my neighbors and knowing they would help The two who live next door who took in my youngest baby and ran around with me, and then the sweet couple across the street who did not even think to put on shoes as they got into there separate cars and drove around looking. I am so grateful that my kids were safe. My heart has been aching for days for those parents who do not know where their kids are at night. I do not know how they go on breathing. I hope that we will all remember how lucky we are to hold our children every day and maybe send a prayer up for those who do not.I truly believe that the Lord is watching over us every second and he guides us and our families more than we will ever know.

Monday, September 17, 2007

Another Newcomer!!!

Another member of the fam dam alie!! My sister has joined the bloging world as well. How fun is her life. I can't wait to see what she turns out. Her two little boy are adorable two little one year old boys 1 born in Oct 1 in september.. Thats right two one year olds 10 months apart. She will have great tales to tell. Go check her out!

Friday, September 14, 2007

Welcome to the wonderfull world of blogging!

A big HELLO to Matt and Lauren my little brother and his beautifull wife. They have moved on from Las Vegas just last week and setled for the time being in Sunny Florida go and check out what an adventure they had on their way to their new home.

I hope they do well.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Super Fun MEME

I saw this over at Chronicler's and it was so fun I am goign to do it too!!!

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)
Sadie Chrysler
2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie),
Cookies and Cream Choclate Chip
3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name),
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal),
Pink Koala
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born),
Kathleen Provo
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first),
7. SUPERHERO NAME: (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink),
The yellow water
8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers),
Richard Donald
9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy),
Pink Grapefruit Taffy
10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names ),
L. Richard
11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter),
Wozniak Waikiki
12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower).
Fall Dasiey
13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”)
Grapefruit Pajama
14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree),
Taost Willow
15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + “Tour”),
The Painting Rain Tour

That was fun! I would love to see what everyone comes up with.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

My Mother

I am going to preface this post with a warning this took a long time to write it was so good for me to get it all down and I am glad for the experience it was writing it. It is long and I apologize for that.

While I was reading comments about my last post I realized something. I blog a lot about my Dad and not so much about my mother Who is Amazing (I mean the best guy in the world married her so she would have to be something Right!) So I will tell you her story, the way that I saw it.

She was born to the most amazing parents, really two people who apart Had their many flaws but together were pretty close to perfect. She was brought up with 8 sisters and 1 brother. She could tell you the most wonderful stories about her life. But the one story that sticks out most in my mind is that while the whole family was crammed into a small car on a trip to Idaho the car rolled several times and landed on it's top, my Mother, the eternal optimist, was very certain that if they all just got out they could flip the car over and be merrily on their way. Of course that was not the case they had to wait together for a ride home. She will also tell you that the only time they would eat out would be for stake conference, once a year they would go to Mc Donalds between the meetings and they would be allowed to order whatever they wanted. She adds "I always got a chocolate shake." She grew up in that happy place and went on to have a great life. She married my father in the Los Angelas temple and soon after that they were at BYU with 5 very young children. They worked hard. They loved each other more than two people should be allowed to. He would leave her notes on the fridge and she would climb into his arms after he was asleep at night. But through all those years they were happy.

Then one day after they left BYU and were back in Hemet Ca. My father and my oldest brother got into the car and never came home. The night before my brother Michael had begged my mom to got o the store with her. She never took the kids and she said no. He asked again with leading in his voice. (He was very obedient and would never ask twice) So she said yes and took him with her. They had a conversation that night where he told her that he was not afraid to die, he just did not want to go to heaven alone. So of course being such a great father my Dad went with him The very next day. My mom waited by the window for hours before an uncle of mine came with the bishop to tell her the news. To this day if you are five minutes late she is already in a rough state!! A trait I am afraid she has passed on to her children.

She came through that year a scarred woman And in an act of utter craziness married a complete jerk who took all of her money pretty quickly. ( we don't talk about that mistake much so I am going to move on) We all soon moved to Las Vegas where my mom had a good job, she still works there today 17 years later. We moved around quite a bit most every other year in fact.

I have a little brother who always seemed to miss school. He would complain of headaches for years before they found out that he a a cyst on his brain that would have to be removed. So of to Primary Children's hospital they went, leaving me and my sisters to my Grandmothers care. I turns out hey could not remove his cyst only shunt it. They said he may require a few more operations while he was growing but he should live a fairly normal life. Normal life to him turned out to be trips between the hospital, a few good months, than another trip to the O.R. I am sure he has had at least 13 operations on his head.

While going through all of this I have a sister who we were all quite certain was manic depressive, and after the medication failed her the doctors finally discovered a hole in her heart that would need to be repaired. So during her Senior year of high school she recovered form having her chest split open and her heart sewn up. She however is still recovering from years of Depressive medication she never needed. But the good new was she got to redo her Senior year this time with me.

Through all of this I am sure my mother suffered and cried much more than I will ever know. However if you ask her she will tell you that her trials were all visible, She is grateful for the blessing of not having to ever struggle with her testimony and faith. She knows that she will be a mother to my older brother again, and that she will be my fathers wife for all of eternity. I love her so much, not just for what she has been through but for the woman she has taught me to be in spite of all of her struggles.

Now whenever one of us has a baby we make sure she is the first to hold them, because more so than I need to she needs to feel the arms that released them. She loves to feel the arms and breath of my father on their new skin.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Change of Scenery

So I have missed my blog so much that I have had to move my whole computer. You see it used to be in the same room that my little baby slept in. OF COURSE that was not working whenever he is asleep there is no way I could have typed. So I told my husband that we needed to move in order to maintain sanity in our house. Soon I will be back in full swing. For now let me catch you all up.
I have been super busy with primary. Let me tell you the secretary is no east job. There is ALWAYS something that needs doing. However I am loving getting to know everyone in my ward, even if it is just through their kids. Last wed. I taught a hair bow class and then just not two hours ago I was painting faces at the ward party. Both of which are a direct result of a hallway chat on Sunday while I was picking up rolls. It feels good to share the small talents I have been blessed with. I am having fun.
I get to go back home to see my family this weekend coming up. My little brother is moving to Florida with his wife to go to pilot school. It was looking like he would not get in, he has had his brain hacked into over 15 times and for some reason they don;t want to let you fly planes when that happens. However after several Dr's notes and scans of all sorts it looks like he has fought the good fight and will be able to live his dream. I am so proud of that boy. ( sorry for the tangent) I am going home to take a family picture before he moves. I am so excited to see all of my family I miss them more than I thought I would. I really come from great stock. My mom is great. She is a whole book in herself I will have to come up with something to share to show you all how great she is.
Can you tell I have missed blogging. Sorry this is so random but I will stop now before my minds wanders even further into indiscernible blubbering. Maybe I will break up all of the things on my m ind and put it into several posts over the coming days.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Puzzle Chairs

Here is what I have been up to for the last month. I found these chairs at a garage sale last year and then had my grandfather enlarge them and cut them out for each of my nephews and my niece. They are a five piece puzzle so, the kids can take them apart and put them back together again. I took and painted them all a different theme.The Butterfly one has flowers one either side. The Nemo one has his gang of friends and the turtles on the sides. The dinosaur one just has different little guys on the sides on side they are dancing and the other I did a dino that resembled him. and the monsters inc. has some other characters on it as well. They turned out well, I wanted so badly something that they could look at every day and think of me when they saw them. I miss them so much more than I realized I would.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

I've been tagged

Okay so I am so sorry this is late hopefully soon I will have pictures up of my latest project that has kept me away....

8 Random facts about my honeymoon, the trip I took right after my husband completed truck driving school and got a job over the road.

1. Two newly-weds do really well in a small bed. (wink/wink)

2. There is never a clean bathroom when you really need one!!!! Also the cleanest rest stop in the country is right outside of Columbus Ohio.

3. I really missed going to church on Sundays, I never realized how much I depended on that renewing of my spirit until I was not able to be there every week.

4. Not all people are as nice as they seem, I had one really scary experience with a guy who I think would have tried to abduct me if my husband was not so great at keeping me with him all the time.

5. Truckers are by far given a bad rap!!! They really are some of the nicest people in the world the culture is so great. They are like a family, truly always taking care of each other. And the new ones are like the kids always getting advise and help when they need it.

6. I love America!!! It is so beautiful and small. I can't wait to be able to go back and see all of the places that we had to drive through, it will be great to show me kids our tracks some day.

7. The best peaches on the planet are in Minnesota.

8. There is an underpass in New York, a "watch for pedestrians" sign in Newark, a light pole in a town in New Hampshire, that I cannot for the life of me remember the name but it reeked of Scent (we delivered to a candle company), and a patch of grass in Ohio. that clearly has our marks left on them. Paint tire tracks or whatever else we smeared on them.

Thank you Smee that was so much fun, really sorry it is so late. I had such a good time thinking about that time in my life it was really great.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

What a week and counting

If you read my kids blogs you may have seen that my little baby is cutting six teeth. Well it has not ended the poor little gut is not getting anywhere. The teeth are definitely in his gums and trying to move but they will not break through. I don't know what to do for him. He just cries and cries. Shoves his fist into his mouth and then cries some more. I have spent all week with him just holding and rocking him. He will nurse for a while and that is his most calm. At night I give him a dose of Motrin and then a hour later a dose of Tylenol just to get him to relax and sleep for a while. My heart is breaking for him. Sometimes being the mom stinks. I wish I could just take all of the pain from him.
"Being a mom is like being pecked to death by a duck" That is what my mom used to say. Now I feel like it is like being the most powerful person in the world but not being able to use it. I am so sad for him and at the same time just plain old angry and tired and weak. I know it is not his fault that he has spent the better part of three weeks crying but I am going to go insane if this does not end soon.

Thursday, July 26, 2007


Finally at 2:30 this morning I finished it..... can anyone guess what? of course it is the very last Harry Potter. I am so sad that is it over but it definitely is. As I closed the book exhausted and crying I rolled over and fell asleep kind of sad for a friend that was gone. For the past ten years we have read and then waited it was always there. I really am kind of sad that it is over.
However it ended well and I guess now I will watch the movie!!!

Friday, July 13, 2007


I married the most perfect guy in the world for me. I am so blessed to have him in my life. When I left for my trip last weekend I was so sad to go, even just overnight. I had a great time but I got a glimpse of what my mom deals with all of the time. I was having a great time but a part of me wished that I had Joe there to see it too. While I was watching all of the little girls dance at the wedding all I wanted was to see My little girl out there as well. I was so sad yet still happy. I am sure that is what my mom had felt every day for the past 23 years.

Then with all of my money headaches this week and my birthday coming up I have been kind of sad too. I knew Joe was going to ask how much he could spend on me and I would have to tell him nothing. But, he never asked. I figured he could tell I did not what a big deal made and so That was good for me, him not asking was a huge gift. However....
I woke up this morning to Joe sitting on the bed which is very odd because normally he is out the door at 5 and I don't get up that early, but there he was with breakfast ready to go. He had been to the store and bought me donuts or Eggo's, whichever I wanted and. ... he remembered that I don't like pre mixed chocolate milk so he came home with syrup. He put in to be late for work so we could have breakfast together. CUTE enough but he did not stop there. After I came back from Costco this morning I had a diet coke in the fridge and Dove ice cream bars in the freezer. You know I just love that he put time into my birthday I am having more fun today finding all of my little gifts than if we were able to get me a whole slew of really pretty presents. I love that man!!! One of our songs we played for our wedding party was are mix of "even though we ain't got money... I'm so in love with you honey" (I don't know the real title)
A part of my hopes that will not continue to be our theme forever. But It is true his little acts of kindness have made this one of the best birthdays I have ever had.

He is definitely a keeper!!!

Wednesday, July 11, 2007


Friday, July 06, 2007


I got tagged by Smee to do this one. Seven things six true one false you guess which is the lie.
I will say I am not as eloquent as Smee but here goes....
1) I once swallowed seven goldfish, peer pressure and the drive to be the best combined to give me a horrible stomach ache.
2) I love to draw but lack a talent so I display my work as my neighbors or my own child's drawings.
3) I will cut open to observe anything that was once living. I am fascinated by how it all comes together, I dream of being able to take a higher level anatomy class just to work with a cadaver
4) I love to drive, being in the car makes my mind wander sometimes to sad moments but mostly to good places
5) I love every second that I am a wife and mother
6) I am a grasshopper, thank heavens I am completely surrounded by ants who will always take care of me.
7) Part of me hates that because I want so badly to be totally self sufficient.

There you have it now you guess which is the fake!

I tricked you all, the fake is #5 I think any woman who says she is in love with her job every second is a lier. Don't get me wrong I love being a mom and a wife but EVERY Second. First of all it hurts like all heck to get them here and then they scream a whole heck of a lot and who knows what comes next. At some point they will hate me for sure. I hear there is a point where teenagers are no fun. I am only at the beginging. AND yes I did do the goldfish, at girls camp one year. YUCK!!!!!!

Tuesday, July 03, 2007


I have been truly wondering about my last post for a week. I have issues with the fairness of the world. And okay I get it "Life is not fair" but I sure hope that it will at least even out with time.

Last week started with a call from my husband. A good friend of ours who he happens to work with did not come into work. So come to find out his 5 year old daughter has leukemia.

Of course I had just not two days before been on the phone with another dear friend of mine whose son just started to talk,which should be a good thing, He happens to be a twin but his sister only lived three days. So my friend is having a hard time. Every milestone in his life will hold a small degree of pain for his mother and as much as she tries to make it better that pain will always be there. I can understand that even my wedding was a sad day for me remembering the people who were not there to hold me.

All of this compounded when my mother called and my sisters husband was in the hospital with what looked like(thank heaven is turned out not to be) Congestive Heart Failure. Three weeks before this he was in a car accident and the day before she was hit from behind and it looks like both of her babies have whip lash.

So all of this compounded with my car breaking down my little girl potty training, my husband pulling a 70 hour work week and me looking to leave town soon. I think I just sort of went into a tailspin I of want to know why!!!!

Thank goodness it is over, I spent allot of last week doing what Smee and my mother advised. I prayed allot. I screamed allot I even broke some things. But in the end I know that my heavenly father can only do so much. Adam and Eve bite into the fruit and all of his control was handed back to man. We are in charge of our own lives. He has the power to stop anything and every once in while I am sure that he does but, It is not his job to make me happy. That is all up to me.
I am only as happy as I allow myself to be and whether I have a mansion or rent to pay. I can have joy in my life if I look for it. Even in times when it is hard to find.
I am so grateful for the gospel I have no idea what I did in the pre existence to be born into what I was but I sure hope I live up to it here.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I am back to issues with the man upstairs

I am troubled this week!

I want to know why some things just plain SUCK! Why is it that some people seem to have trail after trial and others just seem to sail right on through. Who decides who gets to have no trouble ever paying rent or whos kid gets sick or who gets to go on lavish vacations every year. I know most things come down to desicions we make. I know most of my problems the Lord will say "that was all you I had nothing to do with that" But I have some other things (other friends) that I would like to say "What happend" I am not going to go much further now but soon I will elaborate. When I can gather my thoughts and not be so random.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

My kids

I am not a journal keeper, I love it but have not been able to keep it up for years, so here I am gushing about my baby when it hits me, this is a journal. So I have started new blogs one for each of my kids. I will keep up there journals on line. Let me know what you think!! The list is to the left First, second, third.

So in love am I

I am in love. Very much smitten by a very sweet boy. He came into my life Late last year and has had a hold on my heart ever since. I do not know what it is about him that makes him different than the first two special people who came to me but he is. Of course I am talking about my newest child!! My sweet little boy. I have told him many times that he is my favorite baby and it is true. I seem to have bonded with him so much earlier than my first two children. I do not love him more than them. I just think I have come to know him faster, or maybe I have mellowed out more.

With my first baby I was so young (by most standards am still am very young) just barely 21. He came and he screamed. It seems he did not stop screaming until he walked away from me. Thank goodness at 9 months. Then he was followed by a little girl, she is very much a girl. Always creating drama which is a fun change from trains and monster trucks. but I was still trying to BE everything to them both and still be everything to myself and my sweet husband. I loved being a mom and I love being his wife. But I was still not very comfortable with the idea that this was all up to me. I was the person meant to bring these precious and most times challenging spirits to full bloom. I was overwhelmed to say the least.

Then When I found out Number three was coming I was not sure how I felt, I was partially saddened by him not knowing if I could handle being a mother to three hard child.

Then came the hard part. I was so sick, and in bed for most of nine months. Hooked up to I.V. poles, throwing up blood, in and out of Doctors offices and hospitals, nurses in and out of my house taking blood,and pressures and all sorts of things. Such a labor of love. We did not find out the sex of the baby and so that is what we called him "the baby" I think for that reason and for being so miserable I did not think of him as real. With the other two I was buying clothes and binkies and swings, having baby showers and doing lots of things to make them real children before they were born. But he just stayed within me, tucked safely away where not even I thought much about him.

When he was born I met my sweet baby who came out so quietly again I hardly realized he was there. Then because we had been through it all before my dear husband and mother both left me to tend to my other children. So I spent the time in the hospital just holding my baby. He was mine. It did not matter how he got there just that he was and now he was mine. We really bonded that first night together. we became fast friends and I fell in love. He is the most amazing baby I have ever heard of. If Guinness gave a record for good babies he would be it. He is so sweet and I am not afraid of him at all like I was with my first babies. He brought peace from the heavens to my home and I will love him for that always!!

So to my favorite baby I love you sweet heart!!

Monday, June 18, 2007

Haapy Birthday Mom

Mom I wish I had the words to say
To thank you on this special day

To tell you what you mean to me
You made me who I want to be

When you were born who knew the road
you wander would seem so very slow

"Been through so much", they seem to say
As you travel along your way
Your smile does deceive them so
You as special you would hat to show

But to me you are as rare as sand
That turns to pearl within Gods hand

You've been both the sculpture and the clay
Seen the child and the mothers day

And what a mother you have been
Even on the days you were pecked like a hen

Grace is the word that got you through
Pink is the color I think of for you

A lady you were and will always be
Even if I did end up as the pea

I wish I was there to see you cheer
to watch the candle flame disappear

But from afar I want to say
I'm so glad you were born
On this special day.