It is a done deal. The doctor has scheduled my induction for next Friday! I cannot wait. Although an induction is not what I planned I am glad to not be worried about this anymore! I can't help myself from looking up all of the horrible things that can go wrong when you have a placenta abruption. I keep thinking everything that hurts is going to start me bleeding to death!
Thursday, November 06, 2008
I love having babies, the transition that takes place between heaven and earth is such an amazing moment to participate in! For me it brings an even bigger moment. I never feel my Father as close to me as when I bring a baby into the world. I swear you can still feel his arms on my babies when they come. I can almost smell him on them. My mom gets to hold them first she drinks them in and I watch as her and my dad dance together at the end of my hospital bed. My mom leaves this earth for a few minutes and my dad joins her in whatever realm they enter. I watch as she embraces and smells them for a few minutes before handing my child over to
me. I am looking forward to this more than anything else. The joy that enters the room as Dad comes in to visit for just as long as he can stay.
He stays with me for the first few months after they are born. I am not a good mom at night, I have gotten better but still waking me up is not a good thing for anyone no not even my newborns, so since I had Michael 5 years ago my Dad has made sure I was already awake before my kids started crying. Every time. I wake up, even if just for a few seconds, before they cry. Then in the moments where I cannot take anymore in the night I kneel down say a prayer and ask my Father in Heaven to send my Earthy father to come and sing to his grandchild. I then get up lay down my baby and leave the room. (I do not abuse this because it has worked every time) I sit outside the door as in just a few seconds this baby who has been crying for hours calms and falls asleep, I hum the lullaby my dad wrote and listen closely to my baby falling asleep to what I know is there grandpa's familiar and calming voice. I am so excited to get not only Abigail here but Dad as well.
8 more days!!
Posted by The Pea at 3:39 PM