Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Who I am?

The songs of the Children of The church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints. These words carry us out of childhood and into our rough adult lives. They give us the strength we need to be who we are. Our Heavenly Fathers Children. The souls that reside within each of us strive to listen and to feel the spirit that will guide us to be the people we were before we chose to some to this world. The words of these songs bring us that sweet spirit, they fill our hearts with the Love of our Father.

I am a Child of God, and he has sent me here!!
I belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints, I know who I am I know god plan I'll follow him in faith!!
I am like a star shining brightly!!
I see my mother kneeling with my family each day!!
I love to see the temple, I'm going there some day!! 
I will go. I will do the things the Lord commands, I know the Lord provides a way he wants me to obey!
Follow the prophet, follow the prophet, follow the prophet he knows the way!
I'm trying to be like Jesus, I'm following in his ways!!
I lived in Heaven a long time ago it is true, lived there and loved there with people I know so did you!
I want to be a missionary now, I don't want to wait until I'm grown!
I feel my Saviors love, in all the world around me!
I kneel to pray every day, I speak to Heavenly Father, he hears and answers me, when I pray in faith!

These words are a part of me. I know them all by heart. I have sung them with my whole soul since I was very young. I can here the music on the piano as I sing the words. they flow from somewhere deep inside of me, they come straight from my heart. On days when I feel like my whole soul will rip to shreds from the weight just being human brings upon me I can call upon these words and draw my strength from the spirit they bring into my soul. Lately it seems like all the world is in chaos. People are afraid, of so many things. The world seems to be falling of it's axis somehow. And yet here we sit ready to take the next blow that comes our way. 
This has got to make Satan gain power. I bet he just sits back and can't wait to whisper in your ear "Does the Lord love you?" "How could he, if he lets this happen?" "You are just a drop in the bucket, how could he care about your little problem when so many are suffering?" "You didn't even pray this morning. why would he listen to you now?" "You are not good enough, he doesn't care about you?"

Confession:
I have been so bogged down in all of these thoughts and last night after a long and lengthy battle I feel like I am emerging. I was praying and praying to feel something. Anything! I had lost my way somehow. Become weighted down by the things of this world. And after staying up and praying for most of the night the words of a song poured into my soul. "I feel my Saviors love, in all the world around me" Then "I am a child of God, and he has sent me here" And "I know who I am, I know Gods plan, I'll follow him in faith!!" I do know my Heavenly Father has a plan. It is a perfect plan. One that brings me to back to live with him again. And not only me but all of us. All of my brothers and sisters with me. He has prepared  a way. We can overcome all of the things of this life and of this world. Through our Savior Jesus Christ, he will bring us home. We can get there!! It is not easy and sometimes is just plain sucks but, when it is not easy we can lean on the things we have always known. Go back our roots and live the sweet truths of our youth. I AM A CHILD OF GOD AND HE HAS SENT ME HERE HAS GIVEN ME AN EARTHY HOME WITH PARENTS KIND AND DEAR!!....

3 comments:

Jamie said...

It sounds like you came our victorious! Yes, there is a reason we learn those songs so young. And Erin, you are amazing! Love you!

A Sharing Heart said...

I can't believe you are feeling these things. You are amazing and always so close to the Spirit. There must be something in the air because you explained exactly what I have been going through and am finally digging my way out of the dark and dreary world. There is always a reason or a lesson to be learned when we go through these times in our lives. I am glad that you are doing better. Just hang in there being a mother of small children takes an abundance of time and effort. You are a wonderful mother and a great example to me.

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