Goal for June

I am posting this because I need some extra motivation, and I am hoping if I put this out into the void I will have more encouragement and drive to get it done.

Joe and I are setting a goal to not spend any, and I mean any extra money this month. That means no soda, no date nights, no seeing a shirt I like on sale and just picking up a good deal, no saying Joe I am really craving______ can you get it for me, No fast food period! Nothing! Why would anyone do this do you say......

We have two reasons, first we are very curious to see just how much we will save, and two we are going home to Las Vegas for a week for the 4th of July and would like to not have to stress about gas(eek), food, fun, ect...

This is a huge problem for me, I am not a very good planner. I tend to go to the store and come home with things I already have ten of. And then we run out of milk two days later. But, as part of this experiment I am only going to go to the store every 10 days. HOLY COW!! I do not know how I will do this, any tips on how you all stay organized would be helpful. I know one thing I will do for sure and that is stay away from one of my very favorite places, Costco. I am not eve going to go in. I know myself well enough to know that I can not overcome that particular temptation. However I just remembered i am almost out of Diapers, if I go tomorrow does that count. Technically it is not June yet>>>

Wish me luck and let me know if you have any suggestions I would really appreciate it

I've been tagged by Adan

Okay I admit it, I love the meme's!!!!

List 3 joys...

1. My Husband

2. My kids

3. A good night sleep

List 3 fears...

1. My kids being hurt.

2. The dark, for real I still NEED a nightlight. 

3. Guns, I cannot stand them, which is hard because my hubby enjoys shooting and I cannot fathom my sons going with him someday.

List 3 goals...

1. I will be a Nurse midwife someday

2. I am reading the bible through cover o cover before the baby is born. I have never read it like that before.

3. My whole family has been trying to eat healthier lately, I hope My biggest goal is to get Michael to try new things. 

List 3 current obsessions...

1. Pregnancy and childbirth (always with me I am a birth addict!)

2. Eating, I have to really think about what I eat, I know it's gross but I probably will throw it up and some things are less disgusting that way than others.

3. Painting, I want to be like Smee' someday!

List 3 surprising random facts about you...

This one is though, I am not sure I will be very interesting,

1. I love the T.V. show charmed

2. I broke my ankle as a Senior in college without breaking the bone... I tore the ligaments and the bones came apart. They had to be tied back together with the stretched ligaments.

3. I really love Tie Dye, I would probably design my whole bedroom in it if I did not think my husband would throw up when he walked in. 

Well there you have it, I hate to tag anyone because I think most of the people who read my blog have been tagged but hey, Do it if you have not!!

Everything changes

Shinboo reminded me that today is "the day" it is the day my life changed forever. My father and brother were taken home to be with their Father in Heaven again. I was two years old. I wish I could say that I have not ever been angry about it like my sister. But I have been, in fact I have screamed at my Heavenly Father at times. I feel screwed actually. You see I am my Father's daughter, he was my match. I know he and I would have been like two peas in a pod. With him I would have really fit in. Don't get me wrong I have an amazing woman as a mother. I look up to her and love her more than she will ever know. My sisters are great and my brother is a great man. But, my mom(and all of my family) is beautiful, graceful, sweet,organized, clean (I mean freakishly clean) and all of those other things that makes up a woman of God. I, on the other hand am clumsy, and not very neat, I tend to play too much,laugh too much, I will admit I am down right funny. I am my Fathers daughter. He was hysterical in fact I have heard he could take a plain piece of paper and have you in hysterics in no time. 

It was not until I was older that I realized how much I needed him and how much he was there for me. Looking back I know he stood by me as I danced and every time I stood on stage he was in the front row cheering. He was the one who shoved me to St. George when I could not take another minute in Las Vegas and was the one who brought me back home to fall in love with my Dear sweet husband. He stood by me in the temple and watched as I changed from his girl to Joe's. He has watched over and protected me every step of the way. I know when I can't take another second of being up with screaming babies he is the one who comes and sings my kids to sleep. I miss him more every day, He will always be my rock. I love him so much and can't wait to make some real memories in the eternities with him. 

My brother was there as well a perfect seven year old boy. I mean it perfect, my mom puts it as "He just did not understand disobedience" I think I could have learned a ton from him. I bet he would have kept us all from doing all of the fighting we did. I think he would have been the guy who took all of the pain on him and let you get away with it. I know I have a great big brother waiting for me. I wish I had more stories, more memories (any memories really) I wish I could look into heaven for just a little while to get to know him. I bet he is a great guy. He started out great. In fact the night before he died he told my mother he was not afraid to die he just did not want to do it alone. I wonder what great plan was in store for him, I wonder how my Dad helped him fulfill it. I can't wait to find out.  

So heres a few tears for two wonderful men who left my life and a few of your as well too soon! I am so thankful my parents went to the temple and were sealed together for all of eternity. I am so thankful I know that I will see them again. I will spend eternity making better memories than I  could make now. How great is the gospel of Jesus Christ and how lucky I am to be a part of it. 

Mother's day cake

This is what I got for Mothers day this year! It was so fun, Joe took a 9x13 pan and made me a yellow cake. Then he cut the cake in half and layered it with chocolate frosting.  YUMM!!

It may not have been the prettiest cake ever but it was so fun to listen to him make it with my kids while I stayed in the other room. Thank you guys I had a great day!

Where to have a baby

You may not know you have options, at least is most states you do. 

A hospital birth goes pretty much the same no matter where you do it. The Doctors and nurses run the show. They are guided by rules and are wary of litigation so things need to progress on there terms or you start to have some interventions. When you check in if you are in labor they will hook you up to a fetal monitor to measure your contractions and the babies heart rate. Then if you are having regular contractions they will check your cervix to see if you are progressing. Soon after that you will be hooked up to an I.V. and they will start fluids. If you’ve gone into the hospital to be induced they will start our I.V. first and give you cervidill (a chemical inserted into the vaginal canal) this will ripen your cervix and get you ready to dialate. They could skip the cervidil if you have dialated on our own before you arrive. Most often you will get pitocin (a chemicle made version of oxytocyn which your body produces naturally during labor). Pitocen makes contractions come on strong, long and quickly. You don’t get breaks and neither does the baby. Once you have the pitocin it is very hard to avoid an epidural. I have sen it done but not very often. After you have dialed to a 3 or 4, depending on your hospital you get your epidural. With an epidural comes a catheter (a tube to drain your bladder) and most likely a internal fetal monitor(a device that screws into the babies head to monitor fetal distress) An epidural can and most likely will slow down contraction so Usually your water is broken next if it hasn’t broken on it’s own. And then your contractions start to really work. You should progress rather quickly from here. If you don’t your pitocin will be increased to facilitate this. Usually the baby starts to freak out at this point, you see you have had a break from those pitocin contractions by the epidural but the baby had not had much of a break at all, so you can see it’s heart rate will start to jump around and you will be set up to push if you are ready. You are put into he lythos position (on your back with your feet up in stirrups) And you start to push with a nurse. The doctor is called and heads over. If you are in a good position the baby has o trouble coming. If it gets stuck, which happens often in this position, the Dr. uses a vacumn extractor (a suction device that attaches to the babies head) or forsups (a tong like device that goes around the babies head, I will say this one is not used the most) to help bring the baby down the birth canal. Gravity would do this normally but without feeling n our legs you cannot stand or move to help the baby come through on it’s own. This is where you can end up with a cecarian if the baby goes into too much distress. Usually the baby is born and in most cases is fine. The mom does well, the epidural wears off in a hour or less. The baby is taken and cleaned then about by the time you are both ready you are brought back together. 

It is not impossible to have a baby naturally at a hospital but, some of the interventions are a must like the I.V., fetal monitor, and no eating rule. 

At a birth center you go in when you feel you need to, most women choose to labor at home for a while before going. When you get there you are quickly monitored. You do not stay on the monitor for very long. Then you are taken to a room, usually you have a bed, some chairs and a bathroom with a large tub and shower. You are escorted by your midwife who stays with you as much as you need her until you deliver. You are feed when you are hungry and given a drink when you are thirsty.(They typically believe the best hole for liquids is the one God gave you) You progress on your own terms and the baby is monitored frequently. Your cervix is not checked as regularly as in the hospital. The midwife listens to the baby through a stethascope and not a fetal monitor. You move around as you feel you need to. And you can get in and out of the tub. A midwife has stadol and morphine (pain medication) if you want it. When the time comes for the baby to be born you are in a position you choose (most often not on our back) In my case my husband is going to catch with my midwife standing by to guide him. There are resusitation devices and oxygin for mom and baby. They have pitocin to stimulate the uterus in case of post partum bleeding. And in case of emergancy they are hooked up with a hospital near by for transport. 

You can also deliver at home many CMN’s will deliver here however you don’t have all of the same techknowlegy in your home as you do in a center. But studies show a healthy low risk woman in just as safe if not safer in her own home as in a hospital.

Whatever you choose I want you to know your choices! You need to be where you feel safe with people you trust are doing the best for you and your baby.

AH MAN ( That's amen to him)

This is what Jordan does when it's time to pray! Being sick is going to be worth it, if I get another baby even  half as cute as him!!

It's Snowing still

The title has nothing to do with my post today I just felt like putting that out there! 

I just had to get on here and say what a great decision it was to marry Joe. He is the most wonderful man. Since we moved away from our families we have become so much closer, he has had to step it up with the kids as well. I go shopping by myself, Before we left I would leave them with my sisters, here he watches them. It has been hard for him, but he has not complained just learned what he needed to and now we are both very active in my kids lives. I think they still take him for granted but he is working very hard. 

For the last month I have been so sick. To say the least. I am trying to stay off of the drugs I took to keep me eating through all of my previous pregnancies and so I eat what I can but most of the time I am lying down trying not to puke. My house does not stay very clean, the laundry does not get done, dinner does not get made, most of the time. Joe has really stepped up to the plate. For example after getting to work at 6:00 this morning , last night he got home at 4:00 and started water boiling for spaghetti, then he feed the kids and got them washed up. We sat together and watch Little House on the Prairie (don't laugh we love it around here) He had to clean up the living room because we had some guys from the ward over for a few minutes.  Jordan was tired so he got him to bed at 7:00.  He read to Ora and Michael for a while before we had scripture and prayer.  

Then he took them and put them to bed. I was so sick last night he had almost no help at all. I don't even do that!! He did have a problem because he forgot to put there music on. But other than that he is great!    (By the way, he has to give them a ride to bed every night now)

                 

Not only that but after he was done and everyone was settled, out he door he went to help our friends who have a sick daughter. They clean the University of Utah stadium after soccer games and other events, and the money goes to her medical bills. The cleaning started at 9:00 and he got home at 11:30. Now he as work again today looking forward to coming home to clean bathrooms and do some laundry tonight. I do think he has a new respect for my mom who has done this for all of my previous pregnancies. She used to come over and hep me until Joe got home and then she would go into work for a few hours. And be back the next day when my kids got up.

I have seriously been surrounded by so many people who love me so much. I miss everyone and I hope I start to feel better so I can start getting out and seeing my friend s here again.